In recent days, God has been teaching me lessons of complete and total reliance on him. Just when I think I might get a passing grade in that course, life happens to prove there is much yet to learn from a patient and loving God.
For purposes of helping me learn total reliance, the Lord allowed pneumonia to manifest itself in my body at a very, humanly speaking, inopportune time. I was about ten days away from a significant speaking engagement that I felt sure the Lord had orchestrated. Since I have dealt with pneumonia more than once, I understand it takes time to beat it into submission and for the body to recover. In this particular instance, I had seen the doctor at the first sign of a fever and started treatment. As the date approached, God undergirded me with his assurance that I was to keep the engagement and just allow him to strengthen my weakness.
When I arrived at the venue, I was well aware of my weakened condition. I did not feel either physically strong or mentally acute for delivering a humorous presentation. Ask any speaker and they will tell you delivering humor is most difficult and requires much preparation. Comedian Jack Benny said he had to practice for three weeks in order to be spontaneous! As I proceeded to the platform after being introduced, God showed up in all his awesomeness to energize me and help me deliver. There was a lot of laughter, so I judge we were successful in the mission. Was it perfect? No. I am my own worst critic and I can always find things to improve in my presentations, but praise be to God for his help and strength just when I needed it.
The real lesson is that God truly wants us to acknowledge our weakened condition and admit and accept that truly we can do nothing apart from him. As I read in Jesus Calling this morning, “I have designed you to need Me moment by moment. As your awareness of your neediness increases, so does your realization of My abundant sufficiency. I can meet every one of your needs without draining My resources at all.”
Today I must go forth once again in my physical weakness to speak to a local service organization that has requested that I deliver “Keeping the God Focus.” I go knowing my God will once again show up in all his awesomeness to perfect his strength in my weakness. It shall be my delight to give him the glory.
The Lord be praised!